kaylers
09-21-2004, 07:58 AM
Hi Everyone,
I've been really encouraged by this forum and have finally muscled up enough courage to do my journal. During my 1st year of university I met a bodybuilder who was in my class. Intrigued I began talking to my sister who most of you know from Krista at http://www.stumptuous.com/weights.html After my year of gaining the frosh 15, I went home and began my quest to compete in a competition in October. I had done really well and dropped down to 128 in early August. I was really excited by my progress and the program I had been put on. However, within that time period my grandfather began dying of Alzhemiers disease in Kenora, Ontario. Sadly, he passed away and I flew down to Ignace,Ontario (outside of Kenora) to bury him and have a family reunion. After a time of tragedy and lots of grandma's food my fitness progress was thrown out the window. I came home 3 weeks later and had gained weight. Determined to restart and to find another competition to work towards I was at the gym in September pulling into a parking spot when a woman hit me from behind.
Within a week, I felt immense pain thinking that it was accident related. I was rushed to the hospital to discover that it was not accident related at all, but that a cyst had brust on my ovary. That is when year of bad health began. After weeks of feeling quite ill and unable to control the pain that was supposed to only last 48 hours the mystery pain crept upon me. I had begun my weekly midnight rushes to the hospital for pain injections, surgeon visits, doctors, specialist.. all revealing that something was wrong but that they couldn't find it. Then it progressed to the doctors saying that it was in my head. Luckily, my parents and sisters being the most supportive people in the world stood by every visit and came every night to 1 30 min drive away to be with me. After 2 months of agony and distress I had been told I might be suffering from chronic endometriosis.
I had luckily been able to see a surgeon who was able to move my surgery from April to February because of the seriousness . After 8 months of being told it was in my head and on every pain killer in the book the official diagnosis of endometriosis was made.
My recovery was slow and brutal. Ranging from a bad recovery and my insestine shutting down and being rushed to the hospital on my birthday to spend it doing catscans and other icky stuff. Determined to beat it telling myself not to give up I managed to pass all my university courses with two B's and one A.
However at the cost of my illness I gained about 20 lbs. My weight skyrocketed to 148 lbs on my small 5'1 frame. I had always been active as a child from ballet for 13 yrs, to cheerleading, Muay Thai and Kung Fu kickboxing. Depression and sadness about my appearance set in.
But, like Dante's Inferno you have to go to the bottom to come out on top and know the depths that one can handle to make you appreciate the day. As of today I am almost 100% pain free with good and bad days. However, I have worked over the summer getting myself in 'training-prep' working out and learning to make meals. Focused and not giving up on myself I have begun back at training starting Sept. 8th 2004.
My goal is to compete in the FAME 2005 in June in Toronto. I have been going to competitions, reading, studying meeting other competitors anything to keep my motivation and interest. I've decided that since I've fought through such bad health for a year that this is my year to be the best I can be and do do my goal. So here I am with the goal to lose weight from 141 (20-30lbs), lower bodyfat from 33% down to competition percentage. I have done my measurements, pics everything. But, this is my overal goal. I've had a huge turn around from people telling me from working out this summer to how great I look ("No longer like death" - favorite quote) To meeting a wonderful man who is now my bf of 5 months. Who adores me even with my physical and emotional scars who is supportive! I am really looking forward to doing this! I am so thankful for having joined this forum. Thanks so much for allowing me to post. :)
I've been really encouraged by this forum and have finally muscled up enough courage to do my journal. During my 1st year of university I met a bodybuilder who was in my class. Intrigued I began talking to my sister who most of you know from Krista at http://www.stumptuous.com/weights.html After my year of gaining the frosh 15, I went home and began my quest to compete in a competition in October. I had done really well and dropped down to 128 in early August. I was really excited by my progress and the program I had been put on. However, within that time period my grandfather began dying of Alzhemiers disease in Kenora, Ontario. Sadly, he passed away and I flew down to Ignace,Ontario (outside of Kenora) to bury him and have a family reunion. After a time of tragedy and lots of grandma's food my fitness progress was thrown out the window. I came home 3 weeks later and had gained weight. Determined to restart and to find another competition to work towards I was at the gym in September pulling into a parking spot when a woman hit me from behind.
Within a week, I felt immense pain thinking that it was accident related. I was rushed to the hospital to discover that it was not accident related at all, but that a cyst had brust on my ovary. That is when year of bad health began. After weeks of feeling quite ill and unable to control the pain that was supposed to only last 48 hours the mystery pain crept upon me. I had begun my weekly midnight rushes to the hospital for pain injections, surgeon visits, doctors, specialist.. all revealing that something was wrong but that they couldn't find it. Then it progressed to the doctors saying that it was in my head. Luckily, my parents and sisters being the most supportive people in the world stood by every visit and came every night to 1 30 min drive away to be with me. After 2 months of agony and distress I had been told I might be suffering from chronic endometriosis.
I had luckily been able to see a surgeon who was able to move my surgery from April to February because of the seriousness . After 8 months of being told it was in my head and on every pain killer in the book the official diagnosis of endometriosis was made.
My recovery was slow and brutal. Ranging from a bad recovery and my insestine shutting down and being rushed to the hospital on my birthday to spend it doing catscans and other icky stuff. Determined to beat it telling myself not to give up I managed to pass all my university courses with two B's and one A.
However at the cost of my illness I gained about 20 lbs. My weight skyrocketed to 148 lbs on my small 5'1 frame. I had always been active as a child from ballet for 13 yrs, to cheerleading, Muay Thai and Kung Fu kickboxing. Depression and sadness about my appearance set in.
But, like Dante's Inferno you have to go to the bottom to come out on top and know the depths that one can handle to make you appreciate the day. As of today I am almost 100% pain free with good and bad days. However, I have worked over the summer getting myself in 'training-prep' working out and learning to make meals. Focused and not giving up on myself I have begun back at training starting Sept. 8th 2004.
My goal is to compete in the FAME 2005 in June in Toronto. I have been going to competitions, reading, studying meeting other competitors anything to keep my motivation and interest. I've decided that since I've fought through such bad health for a year that this is my year to be the best I can be and do do my goal. So here I am with the goal to lose weight from 141 (20-30lbs), lower bodyfat from 33% down to competition percentage. I have done my measurements, pics everything. But, this is my overal goal. I've had a huge turn around from people telling me from working out this summer to how great I look ("No longer like death" - favorite quote) To meeting a wonderful man who is now my bf of 5 months. Who adores me even with my physical and emotional scars who is supportive! I am really looking forward to doing this! I am so thankful for having joined this forum. Thanks so much for allowing me to post. :)