Allmebaby's NFSC Cutting Log

[allmebaby]

Here's my log for the NFSC competition. I don't post in the Nutrition section but I lurk a lot so I'm eager to get into it. Now don't laugh at my before pictures. I know I'm obscenely fat, but I've been through a lot and I like to focus on what I have accomplished instead of what I haven't. So now I'm at a point in my life where I'm ready to focus on my body and myself.

My stats:

Female
62 inches
220 pounds
47% BF according to the little machine at the gym

[elaina08]

I'm in! I will be watching your progress. I bet you're going to rock this contest. You're not 'obscenely' fat and the fact that you have the motivation to enter a bb contest and do it the right way says a lot.

Good luck to you girl!

[allmebaby]

Thanks I really appreciate it. I'm excited.

[braggable]

In. Good luck!

[allmebaby]

Ok, here are my starting pics. I had a swimming suit with a skirt on it because my legs are awful, so I just cut the skirt off. I thought there was no need to pose in a bikini just yet, at this weight, there's nothing under the one piece that anyone needs to see.

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[allmebaby]

I did really good today. Here's my log for my eating. I also worked out side in the yard for about 30 minutes sledge hammering some rebarb into a hole so we can put some lamps up in the backyard. My dad and I are redoing the landscaping at the house this summer, like laying stone work and putting up a couple of pergolas so that's exciting.

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I usually eat 2 protein waffles in the morning and I'm totally full until about 11am, then I crash around 12:30pm, but today I just ate 1 and had some fruit. I still feel like I need more protein in the morning, but I will have to work on that. Then I had a protein shake around 10:30am for a snack and by 12:30pm instead of hitting a wall and needing a nap, I felt great and was ready to get outside and dig some holes in the yard. I'm tired at the end of the day, but that's how it is supposed to be right? I feel good and am ready to hit tomorrow. I really like the myfitnesspal.com and app for my phone, it's very helpful.

[spicyprice]

Good Luck Chic!! Remember, the key to success is consistency. You can do this!

[allsmiles]

Good luck!! You'll do great! :D

[luisa21]

In! Good luck!!

[MisSarahC]

In:D! You're awesome! Your smile makes me smile. Luvz it!! ^-^ Anyway, good luck!

[rockangel]

I did really good today. Here's my log for my eating. I also worked out side in the yard for about 30 minutes sledge hammering some rebarb into a hole so we can put some lamps up in the backyard. My dad and I are redoing the landscaping at the house this summer, like laying stone work and putting up a couple of pergolas so that's exciting.

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I usually eat 2 protein waffles in the morning and I'm totally full until about 11am, then I crash around 12:30pm, but today I just ate 1 and had some fruit. I still feel like I need more protein in the morning, but I will have to work on that. Then I had a protein shake around 10:30am for a snack and by 12:30pm instead of hitting a wall and needing a nap, I felt great and was ready to get outside and dig some holes in the yard. I'm tired at the end of the day, but that's how it is supposed to be right? I feel good and am ready to hit tomorrow. I really like the myfitnesspal.com and app for my phone, it's very helpful.

Yard work is great! I remember (longer past than i care for, lol) hammering t-posts into the ground, thats some serious work!! Its cool you can track online too. That helps a lot.

And i dont think you are obscenely fat either. I think you have a great chance to really rock this contest!

Good luck!

[allmebaby]

Thanks, it's really rewarding because there is some serious work that needs to be done outside and looking at that and knowing that I helped do that, it's pretty empowering. Yeah when my dad said that we would hammer that rebar into the holes, I thought "oh yeah, we'll do that then pore the cement." When it took 30 minutes just to sledge that stuff into the ground and we were both exhausted, I knew it might take a couple of days before we get the cement in the ground.

[CathyVee]

I'm definitely going to watch your progress. Good luck to you!

[allmebaby]

Dang I wrote a whole post last night and it didn't post, dang it! Well, yesterday was a great day. I had reevaluated my diet from the day before and decided that the syrup on my waffle was a complete waste so I tried the yogurt instead. I didn't love it, but it ws good for the added protein.

I also worked outside digging holes then hammering rebar into them, that was intense. I felt like I had a total body workout when I was done, it was exhausting!!! But the best part of the day was that because I had worked outside for about 45 minutes, and because I had only eaten 1500 calories by dinner, I was able to have 2 skinny cow ice cream sandwhichs before I went to bed. It was great, I didn't wake up hungry and I didn't have a headache. So that's definitely a keeper.

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[SideSteal]

In on this thread, watching your progress!

Good luck! Lets do dis!

[Cumulonimbus]

In! Glad to see you monitoring calories and macros with a good tracker. You got all the help and motivation you can ask for... so give it all and KILL IT :D

[allmebaby]

Wow, I'm totally flattered that so many people are following with me. I totally appreciate it. Again, today was an awesome day! Eating went well, and according to my MyFitnessPro I burned close to 700 calories cleaning the house today. Now I don't think it was that much but freakin A it took me 2 1/2 hours to clean. My kids really helped out a lot to which was awesome. They are 4 and 5 and the cleaned all 3 bathrooms, cleaned all the mirrors in the house and vacuumed the stairs. I was totally impressed and happy because it would have take me another 45 minutes to do all that stuff. But I was also exhausted by the end of the cleaning too. So I'm going to err on the side of caution and assume that the 700 calories was an overestimation. According to my tracker, I ate well within my limits, plus I don't feel like I was starving at all. I actually feel pretty good, again no hitting the wall which is good.

I think that I need to get more fat, I'm averaging around 50g a day, and my macros are for 60g. But wait how does that work? So I estimated my macros for a 1700 calorie diet, but if I'm eating to hit 1700 calories so I end up eating more to make up for my exercise then I will just have to do a balanced thing I guess. I do feel like I'm getting a little thinner, like everyday my stomach doesn't poke out as much as much as the day before, and I have a little bit more energy, and logically I know that I'm eating within my limits, plus I don't feel like I'm starving at all or anything. So this is the best of all worlds.

I want to have a good eating plan down for a week before I start going to the gym. I don't want to get on it too soon, I want to make sure my diet is fairly solid before starting to workout. So for the rest of this week I will focus on just working outside, which is a pretty good workout for me right now, then starting on Monday I will do the training program as per Jaime Eason's plan for me, on the "find your plan" thing.

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[Echo814]

In! Looking good in here, you have a great chance of killing it :D

[allsmiles]

I want to have a good eating plan down for a week before I start going to the gym. I don't want to get on it too soon, I want to make sure my diet is fairly solid before starting to workout. So for the rest of this week I will focus on just working outside, which is a pretty good workout for me right now, then starting on Monday I will do the training program as per Jaime Eason's plan for me, on the "find your plan" thing.


I think this is a really good idea, it's easier to do things one step at a time rather than hurling yourself in at the deep end! I always find the diet is the hardest thing to get my head round so once that's all clear and you're getting the hang of it then you can add in the workouts and it doesn't feel like too much at once! Not that I'm an expert by any stretch of the imagination!!

You seem to be doing great so far :D

[allmebaby]

Thanks everyone! Today was a little bit harder, but I learned something. So I had my waffle that I make for breakfast every morning, but then I didn't have anything else. Like I usually have a yogurt or some fruit also, but today I just didn't. And I didn't drink as much water as usual. By lunch time I was feeling light headed and weird. Then I had planned on making a fish sandwich that I love, but the stupid fish was really tough and weird, so I threw that away and then it was basically a goat screw after that because I was so hungry so I just made another chicken sandwich. But by then it was too late and I already had a terrible hunger/dehydrated headache. So that basically screwed my day, I didn't really work outside that much because I felt so crappy.

I also was interested to see most of my "competitors" are eating around 1500-1600 cals a day and I was wondering if I'm eating too much. Like some are eating 1500 cals a day then lifting crazy weights too and I'm thinking hmmmm.... maybe I'm doing it wrong. Any ideas?

I also read a thread about using frozen broccoli in a protein shake instead of ice, very interesting, I will be trying that tomorrow so stand by.

Editted: I went to Sansai for dinner and I think there's probably more calories then 405 in a chicken bowl with a side salad, but I gave half of the chicken bowl to my kids so I'm going to keep it like that. Also it probably added about 20g of protein that isn't calculated in there.

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[Cumulonimbus]

You def. are not eating too much. I'm not going to sugar coat you, but be honest because I can see that you really want to get down to it and drop the lbs! But for a person with your weight, your BMR is a lot higher than people who weigh less. So enjoy the food for now and make sure you're in a slight caloric deficit, either through reduced calorie intake, or through cardio, or from a small mixture of both (I like a 50/50 mix of cardio and calorie reduction) :)

With regards to your fluid intake, carry a water bottle if you feel the need to, or stock up on some diet soda :D

Any Q's just ask!

[spicyprice]

I totally agree with Culum. You absolutely are not eating too much and I am willing to bet you could bear to eat a bit more, especially if you find your energy levels are suffering.

I always carry around a 1L water bottle and guzzle all day long with a goal of 3L minimum (although I usually hit over 4.) Dehydration definitely is an energy zapper and, at least for me, can lead to overeating because of mistaking hunger for thirst.

You look like you are doing great with staying on track! Keep it up!

[allmebaby]

Thanks everyone. Spicy, just so you know, you're back is totally my goal. Even after I got out of basic training and had a 4 pack, I still had a stupid fat back. So I know that when I get to the point where I don't have those bra lines, that I will be where I want to be.

[allmebaby]

Today was good, I definitely drank tons of water and didn't get a headache or anything. One this I did notice was that I didn't have a chance to eat either a morning or afternoon snack so I basically stuck with the 3 main meals, and I didn't like it at all. By the time the next meal came around I was super hungry and was tempted to make poor food choices, so I think I've found smaller, frequent meals is best for me. I've been working on stuff all day and I'm straight exhausted.

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[spicyprice]

Thanks everyone. Spicy, just so you know, you're back is totally my goal. Even after I got out of basic training and had a 4 pack, I still had a stupid fat back. So I know that when I get to the point where I don't have those bra lines, that I will be where I want to be.

Aw, you make me BLUSH! Thank you so much. I know you will get there, and when you do your back will be killer. It is so strange where we all carry our stubborn fat.

I was looking at your posting from today and I noticed you said that you were having issues with hunger. Have you considered upping your protein just a bit and trading out some of your carbs? Last year I was having a similar issue and when I upped my protein I found myself much much more satisfied for longer. Figured it would be worth suggesting.

BTW, I DREAM of a 4 pack! I think its awesome that you know what you can do and what your potential is.

[Echo814]

I agree with everyone else you are not eating to much :) Once you get closer to your healthy/ideal weight the less cals you need to maintain so the numbers look smaller especially when dieting.

Right now you could probably get a decent loss going with a 10% reduction of maintenance cal's and once you start working out recalculate from there. spicyprice makes a good point about the protein I would shoot for 140 grams a day and see if that helps :)

[allmebaby]

I decided that my eating time line isn't the typical meal time. I like eating about every 3 hours like 7:30am, 10:30am, 1pm, 4pm, and 7pm. So I'm going to work on trying that. Today was good, but I really want to try to button up my diet this coming week. I'm definitely going to try to incorporate less carbs and more proteins and fats. Also I feel good, I think I'm ready to start hitting the weights on Monday so that's exciting.

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Editted: It looks like I'm eating a lot but it's also calculating what I've been doing exercise wise, like doing a lot of cleaning and working outside and stuff. It's not great, but hey, it's something.

[allsmiles]

Starting on the weights tomorrow, exciting times! I look forward to reading about your workout :D

[Echo814]

Finding the right diet balance might take time and if eating several meals at a day works for you then go for it :) Hope you first day at the gym goes well rock it out!

[allmebaby]

I was really hungry today, so I ate a little bit more than usual, but I think I did ok. I know that I'd really like to even out my macros a bit this week, and I'm going to start doing a weight/cardio workout most days starting tomorrow. I have a gym membership but I can't go because I have my kids with me all the time and it's super expensive to have them go to the little play thing. Here's my log for the day, again, not great, but ok.

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[allmebaby]

Man, I'm really struggling today. Personally, not competition wise. But honestly it's like a freakin nightmare around here. I left my husband last month because he's a complete jackass and is bipolar and has PTSD from going to Iraq so many times. Anyways, it had just gotten to the point where he needs help and he refused so I took the kids and left and moved back in with my parents in another state. Last week he dropped out of school so we won't be getting his GI bill anymore and instead of getting a full time job like he said that he would, he got a part time job and basically isn't going to give me any more money, and since I lost MY job in December, I'm really having a hard time. And my parents are really relying on me a lot and complaining to me a lot about each other and their other kids and then I have my kids who are having a hard time right now too because they don't have their daddy anymore, and I'm so stressed out that they are really getting the brunt of it, and it's not their fault and I'm trying really hard to be a good mom, and a good daughter, and a good wife, and provide for my family and no matter what I do, no one is happy and it's just exhausting.

Well, I did well today, I could improve, but at this point, I just want to curl up and cry so anything positive, I will take.

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[matticakes]

Sorry to hear that, hang in there :] All you gotta do is take it one day at a time, and things will turn around for you and your family. Diet looks good, keep it up.
good luck :]

[MisSarahC]

Oh man, I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through such trying times:( I truly believe, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. I admire your strong will & spirit to have had the courage to leave your husband & move to an entirely different state for the sake of your children. Although difficult, harness that strength and push through these tough times with your chin up. Praying for you & BIG HUG❤

Alis Volat Propriis ~ She flies with her own wings.

[Echo814]

I hope all is going well. I'm so sorry to hear about the issues you are having, I think you did the right thing by removing yourself from the situation. Hugs and I agree with above poster and its in my sig, "that which does not kill me"

[allmebaby]

Thanks everyone. I really appreciate it. It's been a wild week and I can't say that I've been eating that well. I've actually been doing pretty crappy, but I'm a stress eater, that's for sure.

I've been looking into IF. I used to swear by the whole "eat every 3 hour" thing, but at this point, it's hard to come up with so many different meals everyday. The only thing I'm concerned about it getting hunger headaches and feeling weak. I probably get that because I'm eating like crap though, so if I clean up my diet, I don't think that IF would be a problem. What's everyone else's experience been? Has anyone had a rough transition?

[Echo814]

IF has been a natural eating method for me since I can't stomach food for at least 2-3 hours after I wake up. I like bigger meals and love that even when dieting I can sit down and eat what I want (planned of course :D). Some people adapt really well to it and some don't, most people do get hunger headaches for the first week or so and then it stops. I wont lie, during TOM I feel weak sometimes, but when my feeding window hits it goes away. I also like the social flexibility, if I wanna go out I can still hit my calorie goal and not feel bad because I am not joining in.

[spicyprice]

IF is definitely something that some people either really like or really don't.

For me, adequate protein and fat become a bigger issue with IF. If these are not up to par, I find myself hungry when I shouldn't be.

Hope this week is better for you!! Rooting for your success!

[allmebaby]

I don't want to sound like a whiny crybaby, attention whore, but I don't really think that I can do this right now. I've had deep seeded emotional issues with food for 29 years stemming back from when I was a little girl and we didn't have enough food to feed all 8 of us growing up. I think with everything I've got on my plate right now, that I bit off more than I can chew. I think in order to really make this lifestyle change I need to be able to dedicate a good portion of my time to food and workout planning/ preparation and honestly I just don't have the time or energy to do that right now.

Like logically, I know that that sounds really stupid, because it's just food and it's just exercise, but emotionally, it's really difficult. I don't know, if that sounds stupid, I feel like it does but you know, I'm kind of having a tough time right now.

[elaina08]

It doesn't sound stupid at all. Life is stressful and really sucks at times. But you know what, you're doing so good! Don't lose your momentum now! Just say to yourself, life can dish out what it will but you can do what you know is good for your body.

Maybe don't think so much about it. Don't make working out and eating right this big thing that is your life .. but make it part of your life. Something that just is and happens naturally everyday. At first it's hard but eventually it will just happen. You'll wake up and find yourself driving to the gym just because that's what you do.

Just keep truckin' .. you can do it!

[ian0789]

It doesn't sound stupid at all. Life is stressful and really sucks at times. But you know what, you're doing so good! Don't lose your momentum now! Just say to yourself, life can dish out what it will but you can do what you know is good for your body.

Maybe don't think so much about it. Don't make working out and eating right this big thing that is your life .. but make it part of your life. Something that just is and happens naturally everyday. At first it's hard but eventually it will just happen. You'll wake up and find yourself driving to the gym just because that's what you do.

Just keep truckin' .. you can do it!

Reps ^^^^

And this, I use the gym as a get away. I put on my Ipod, get warmed up and I block out everything around me. I tend to take my anger out on my lifts. It sounds silly but the Gym has been my biggest tool in dealing with my ED, Personal Life and just about everything.

Some times I find my self stressing way to much about eating, lifting and everything that I enjoy and turn it against my self. Its at that point you need to just take a step back, take a big gasp of air and clear your mind to get your self back on track ;)

Just keep on trucking!

[elaina08]

How have you been? I noticed you haven't posted in awhile .. just checking in on ya :) I hope all is well!

[allmebaby]

Ok, I know it's been a while, but I'm back on. Really, it's been a wild last few months and all in all, I'm exhausted. But I'm back. Anyways, I've been reading a lot about IF, and whenever I think about doing it, all I think about is how relieved I would be not worrying about eating and planning meals all the time. So I tried it today, this was my first day, and honestly I was worried because I was afraid that I was going to have a headache and not be able to function, plus I was going to be gone at work all day and I work on my feet so I was afraid that I was going to get all sweaty and pass out or something.

But in the beginning, I felt very in control, and whenever I got hungry, all I thought was "it's ok, you're going to have an awesome lunch in a little bit." I was very pleased, and at the end of the day I didn't feel bloated as usual, I felt strong and in control and it was great. I will report tomorrow about day 2 of IF.

[allmebaby]

Day 2 of IF and I love it. I feel so in control, and really the morning hunger isn't that bad at all. I think that it used to be that I would wake up and feel like I had to eat anything for breakfast just so that I could function and now that I'm waiting until around noon to eat, I can plan a very complete wholesome meal. It's great, it's only day 2 and I already feel better physically, like more energy and not so food focused and dependent.

[allmebaby]

I will tell you what I figured out about why I'm so not committed to losing weight and having a healthy lifestyle. I figure if I tell someone, then maybe they can point out to me how stupid it is and I will be able to get through it. I just realized this the other day, because I just couldn't figure out why I would say "I'm starting to eat right today" and then just totally sabotage myself. First off, we didn't have very much food growing up, like we literally starved for a long time, so I have a really unhealthy relationship with food to begin with. If there's food there I just have to eat it because as a kid I didn't know when I would get to eat again. So I'm totally an emotional eater, and it's really a crazy relationship. Well, finally what I figured out is that being overweight has really protected me for the last several years. After I got out of the army, I had all those miscarriages and I gained quite a bit of weight, and that's when Bush started calling all those people who had just gotten out of the military back to active duty and I was so afraid that I would be called back to Iraq. But I knew that if I was very overweight, even if they did call me back to active duty that they wouldn't make me go because I would be considered morbidly obese and it wouldn't be worth the army's time to try and make me lose it all. So my excessive weight protected me from going back to Iraq, even though I was never called up, it made me feel better about the situation though. Now, I think that I keep all this terrible weight around because I know that if I lost the weight and felt great about myself and was pretty and healthy and happy that the first man that paid even a little bit of attention to me I would be all over him and definitely make a bad choice. And as much as my husband is a douche bag, I'm not ready to start cheating. So as much as I want to look and feel amazing, I'm afraid that if I do, I'll be having boyfriends all over the place. Because when I was single before, I was a total slut and I don't think it would take a whole lot to send me right back into that. This was long and probably painful. But anyway, just thought I would put this out there.

So long story short, I think I'm ready to start trying again. Hopefully for the last time.

[MITCHAPAL00ZA]

Not trying to be an ******* but i think you should consider seeking professional help.As you stated, your relationship with food is clearly unhealthy and the fact that you are coming up with reasons to try and justify being overweight seems like this is a psychological problem.

[allmebaby]

I don't think you're being an a-hole at all. I actually need some brutal honesty at this point. I have been through counseling and am on meds that make it so that I can actually function. I know that makes me sound like a complete idiot, but it's true. But I think you're right, I am going to see what my options are as far as professional help, and see about starting it again. Thanks.