BlakeXI
02-02-2011, 12:22 PM
Hi all. New member here. I am going to keep this short. I turned 22 last month and have been battling anorexia. Hospitalizations have not helped as I end up fighting treatment whenever I am there. However, I am nothing but skin and bones and fear death. I need a place to chronicle my attempt to keep living or else I fear I may not. I have lurked this site for awhile and found many people's stories as inspirations. I hope I can become one of those stories.
My log my not be as interesting as others because I probably will not be posting pictures of my food. I will probably just stick with what I eat, do and feel. I am 4'11" and today I weighed an all-time low of 68lbs with pajama pants on.
Yesterday I ate 1359calories, 146g protein, 35.5g of fat and 114g of carbohydrates. I am hoping to get up closer to 1500 calories today. I will be lifting weights 4x a week.
Please don't tell me just to go back into the hospital because I have done it so many times and it just has not worked. Any encouragement, feedback or harsh criticism is welcome.
My log my not be as interesting as others because I probably will not be posting pictures of my food. I will probably just stick with what I eat, do and feel. I am 4'11" and today I weighed an all-time low of 68lbs with pajama pants on.
Yesterday I ate 1359calories, 146g protein, 35.5g of fat and 114g of carbohydrates. I am hoping to get up closer to 1500 calories today. I will be lifting weights 4x a week.
Please don't tell me just to go back into the hospital because I have done it so many times and it just has not worked. Any encouragement, feedback or harsh criticism is welcome.